Farewell

Eccl 7:4 "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning..." Saying goodbye can never be an easy thing to do but it's happen for all of us at least once in our lifetime. Ah Kong, Auntie Dolly's father passed away 2 days ago at the age of 81. He was like a grandpa to me.

Seen him in and out of the hospital from one who went out daily with his kakis to eat the best food in town, to being cared for almost 24/7 and yet he was still very much alive! He makes me ashamed of myself, for sometimes half-living day to day.

I don't know for you, but for me, funerals are for the living not the dead. It's a time that brings sweet remembrance, healing, a proper closure and permission to move on. Thank you Ah Kong for being the life of a party, for showing me that I must live and enjoy the abundant life in Christ!

for this, i have Jesus

Just want to climb into bed and curl up like a fetus. A little cloud of worry has drifted in and sat itself on my forehead. I hate grey feelings, it's not black nor white. I'm not an iron lady, I'm just a big kid inside.

I can't see what the future holds. I can only see what is before me today, what I will do in the next few hours. I can go about telling others how to fight their giants but I'm terribly timid when it comes to fighting my own. I annoy myself with my timidity.

while it's raining outside...

I thought I should type something here hahah. Something bright and cheery! I know you must be thinking FINALLY eh? Hope I didn't leave you in a dangle. It's been so long I don't even know how to start talking about everything. So much has happened, so much has changed. I did quite a bit during the holidays from Israel, Turkey to Melbourne! I love to travel!

I'm 22 now and into my 2nd year at EAST! This quarter is one crazy one with 9am-9pm classes. Felt a little disheartened at the beginning of this week with the copious amounts of readings. Yet when I look back on the past year, I survived by the grace of God, time and time again so what's another year eh!