Went out to play

When we got sick of being in front of the computers! Have I mention that there's this thing about my kites being stuck in the tree or flying far far away?

God knows my size

This CNY, I had no time to go out and get anything to wear! You know the whole tradition of getting something new? Heh, the woes of being a girl and wanting to dress up. Got to admit that I wasn't really looking forward to all the celebration. No family, nothing to wear, datelines, no mood.

Had a simple reunion dinner at Grandma's on Saturday and I decided to stayover. Was working on an essay at the kitchen counter when I got a call... about 10 mins before the clock striked 12, I received a bag of brand new clothes. I couldn't believe it! Felt like cinderella. My friend's girlfriend who owns a blogshop came all the way to the void deck to give me some absolutely lovely pieces of clothes which fits me perfect! Thank you so much, tiff!

As I tried on a blouse and looked into the mirror, the passage from Matthew 6 which mich shared during prayer meeting on Friday came to mind. "...will I not much more clothe you (Lydia), O you of little faith?" I teared and teared. God knows my very heart and there is such comfort in that! This was like my Valentine's Day gift from Him, felt super duperrr loved. Instead of sadness and loneliness, I was filled with the joy of the Lord. As nice as a man's love may be, God's love far surpasses it!

Okay, more ang-baos and bah gua. Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Dong-dong-qiang!

Give it to Jesus

Too often, I find myself focusing on what I expect out of myself. Working long hours and wearing myself out. I've been trying so hard to be who God wants me to be with my own strength. "My people have committed two sins: they have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water." (Jeremiah 2:13)

"Lydia, will an 'A' get you any faster into heaven?" Today, God showed me more clearly than ever my weaknesses."In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat- for he grants sleep to those he loves." (Psalm 127:2) At the end of the day, what really matters? I was never made to be independent or self-sufficient but to be dependent upon Jesus!

"Papa, I don't mean to complain but I'm tired, tired of having to be strong. On the inside, I'm still a little girl in need of her Father's comfort and strength. Help me to draw upon Your strength, to feel Your strong arms holding me up. Love, Your daughter."

"Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain." (Psalm 127: 1)