Start well, End well!

Life has been a flurry of activities, life changing events... I don't know who ever comes here any longer. Maybe that's why I've finally decided to update this space haha. I'm hearing jingle bells already, 2 more weeks to Christmas break!

The end-quarter symptoms are showing once again. This coming week is another highly stressful one... the intensity of 5 modules is breathing down my neck. 2 essays due, 10 pages each and I'm at zero word count! 1 report and preparing for RFKC (Royal Family Kid's Camp) training this Sat. I'm doing a session for the counselors.

This final year has been really tough. I woke up this morning wondering if I am going to make it, or if anything I do would make a difference anyway. But i guess whether or not it does, at least I can say I tried and gave it my all.

I know some people that holds the most stressful jobs in an ever fluctuating environment. But yet each time I see them, they have this smile on their faces, genuine happiness in their hearts and always so calm and objective. It makes me wonder... are they for real? Such an inspiration. It's a choice to make!

It's really by the grace of God that I've come this far and I also got to say that God has sent me a special angel who's been so encouraging and loving! I'm reminded of how everything is made beautiful in His time and we just gotta keep trusting Him even when the future seems bleak.

When u hit rock bottom only way is up!

When you think you've hit the bottom and the bottom gives way

And you fall into a darkness; no words can explain

And you don't know how you make it out alive

Jesus will meet you there

When the doctor says "I'm sorry we don't know what else to do."

And you're looking at your family wondering how they'll make it through

Whatever road this life takes you down

Jesus will meet you there

When the jury says "guilty" and the prison doors close

When the one you love says nothing; just packs up and goes

When the sunlight comes and your world's still dark

Jesus will meet you there

When you've failed again and all your second chances have been used

And the heavy weight of guilt and shame is crushing down on you

And all you have is one last cry for help

Jesus will meet you there

When you realize the dreams you've had for your child won't come true

When the phone rings in the middle of the night with tragic news

Whatever valley you must walk through

Jesus will meet you there

He knows the way to wherever you are

He knows the way to the depths of your heart

He knows the way cos' He's already been where you're going

Jesus will meet you there

He will meet you there

Jesus met me right there :)

Been up to

I am officially in the clouds with church history. And it's not a "Cloud Nine" feeling. Thankful for the long weekend though! I love cycling, I go so fast that it's perpetually windy. I get to explore much more than my feet can. I love prawning, the excitement of catching and cooking it alive. Sounds evil I know. I love kite flying, it takes my breath away... big fields please! Got to do all these with my Bible Study Group (BSG) which made it all the more awesome! I think most people have grown out of their city ways as well. I like!

Farewell

Eccl 7:4 "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning..." Saying goodbye can never be an easy thing to do but it's happen for all of us at least once in our lifetime. Ah Kong, Auntie Dolly's father passed away 2 days ago at the age of 81. He was like a grandpa to me.

Seen him in and out of the hospital from one who went out daily with his kakis to eat the best food in town, to being cared for almost 24/7 and yet he was still very much alive! He makes me ashamed of myself, for sometimes half-living day to day.

I don't know for you, but for me, funerals are for the living not the dead. It's a time that brings sweet remembrance, healing, a proper closure and permission to move on. Thank you Ah Kong for being the life of a party, for showing me that I must live and enjoy the abundant life in Christ!

for this, i have Jesus

Just want to climb into bed and curl up like a fetus. A little cloud of worry has drifted in and sat itself on my forehead. I hate grey feelings, it's not black nor white. I'm not an iron lady, I'm just a big kid inside.

I can't see what the future holds. I can only see what is before me today, what I will do in the next few hours. I can go about telling others how to fight their giants but I'm terribly timid when it comes to fighting my own. I annoy myself with my timidity.

while it's raining outside...

I thought I should type something here hahah. Something bright and cheery! I know you must be thinking FINALLY eh? Hope I didn't leave you in a dangle. It's been so long I don't even know how to start talking about everything. So much has happened, so much has changed. I did quite a bit during the holidays from Israel, Turkey to Melbourne! I love to travel!

I'm 22 now and into my 2nd year at EAST! This quarter is one crazy one with 9am-9pm classes. Felt a little disheartened at the beginning of this week with the copious amounts of readings. Yet when I look back on the past year, I survived by the grace of God, time and time again so what's another year eh!

Israel Day 1

Shalom! It's 9pm here, Singapore time 2am. This is going to be a short post because I am absolutely bushed out after the 14 hrs flight and immediately starting our adventure through the various Biblical sites. During the drive from the aiport, I was struck by the green I saw. Certainly wasn't how I pictured Israel! Apparently many trees were planted following the independence war.

Okay, just found out I have to wake up at 5am! Zzzzz so I shall just tell about these pictures here. They were taken at Beth Shemesh ("house of the sun") This city, assigned to the Levites, marked the historical border between Israel and the Philistines. This was where Samson lived! I can't believe I'm here! Very excited for tomorrow. Will show you soon the interesting food (pita, hummus & ultra sweet deserts) that I've been eating. Stay tuned...